In the world of system theory, I am a ‘flow-through’. Energy, information and matter flows into me and is transformed through my experiences and intention as it continues on its way. I am amazed by this, but it makes me think how often I misuse the tremendous potential I hold if this is true.
More often than not, I falter around in my little version of myself as ‘self-world’. I can’t see anything beyond myself, or others with whom I identify, and I put all my energy and effort into protecting my beliefs, my beloveds and the ‘life’ I have precariously carved out for myself. I use my capacity for thinking and desire to create myriad levels of separation; ‘me vs. ‘them’. I know where I stand, right? I know who I am.
Yet, as you read these words, and the concepts they contain, a part of me extends into you. The ‘process’ that is me has extended far beyond my skin, into the cortex of your brain. I have flowed right into you. How do you separate me from you? Or you from those around you? This is the much larger ‘selfness’ of which I am becoming aware. I find myself more often than not re- experiencing the world as my extended self and its story as my extended story.
But after all, I have a place in this world, my own identity and a separateness that defines ‘who-I-am’. –or do I? Do I need separation to belong? Or can I just pull up a chair and join the family?
And now that I know that how I choose to live my life affects you, will I choose to give you more chaos or bless you with harmony? I used to think that I was only accountable for the transformation of myself, but now it seems that to some degree, although not my intention, I find myself accountable for the transformation of my world as well.
janet balboa 
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